time’s passing.

last week i took four days off from work, so i went to vienna for easter holidays. my family was proud that i had finally finished my studies and called me „frau magister“ because they don’t get my degree. i think they simply don’t want to, since everything is a „frau/herr magister“ in austria, which amuses me a lot. my little sister told me she feels like i’m 10 years old (she’s at that age), which made me happy. more than happy, as she said she can have as much fun as with her friends. we cuddled in bed and played singstar on her playstation. it was great to see my dad and stepmum, you can have a lot of fun with them. i loved to sing in my grandma’s corridor, as usual, with the ipod in my ears. i always sing a little wrong with the earphones in my ears, but my grandma loves it anyway. i love her, too.  i like it when she lies down in her big red armchair or when she cooks „palatschinken“ (the austrian version of pancakes). i was happy to have lunch with the family in the sun, kürbiskerschnitzel mit petersilkartoffeln. oh my, i am speaking a lot about food. i also went to steffi’s (after having had dinner and australian beer) where we had some other beers, loud music and a few nostalgic moments, as usual. and we had this oracle (which we somehow called „miracle“) that told us the answers to our questions. i was lucky to know i was going to have a more or less good future. an o.k. one at least. good that she lent me €15, as i don’t like it much to stay over at someone else’s. so i went home by taxi. the driver was kind of weird, but i arrived home safely and slept in in a minute. from the cultural point of view, i went to the theatre („im weissen rössl“ – but a funny version) and to a children’s musical show („sophistikids“). my grandma and me caught the badner bahn, she accompanied me to my dad’s house. i loved to have barbecue on the terrace, even though it was raining at 1 p.m. and i was freezing a bit. i hated it when my sister’s cat broke my cardigan, but i will try and get another one. i love the cat though, he is called „csilli“ (the spelling is from my sister). i went shopping and bought masses, as the h&m in vienna is much more relaxed than the one in munich. i spent a lot of money and went home with a smile and a red bull sugarfree in my hands. one day i had starbucks frappuccino with nici, which was nice, since i hadn’t seen her in ages. three times, i visited my grandpa in hospital. it wasn’t that funny, but it was good to see him and to relieve my grandma, at least a bit. finally i went home by plane last sunday and was upgraded to business, so i had a nice meal and a relaxing flight, which prepared me for the upcoming week.

today is friday and i cannot wait for the weekend to arrive.
also, i need music in my ears.



Ich will wieder ein Kind sein und jetzt auf die Seefestspiele Mörbisch. Mit hübsch anziehen, lauer Sommernacht, Fähre fahren, Gelsenstichen und Riesenfeuerwerk am Schluss und mit Glücksgefühlen wieder mit der Fähre nach Illmitz fahren. Und Auto nach Hause und dann glücklich einschlafen. Kindheit. Sommer. Nostalgie.

# Der Vogelhändler – Schenkt man sich Rosen in Tirol
# nostalgisch²³

it’s hard to repair
i tell you i know
just give it some time
and maybe some wine
and maybe a beer
and maybe a trip
to far far away
but never to stay

always come back
come back to me
please come back to me
come back to me

and this one is for all the heartbroken people

Ich bin ein bisschen verliebt: myspace.com/tamfmusic

Golden Cage.

So you no longer care if there’s another day
I guess I have been there, I guess I am there now
You knew what you wanted and you fought so hard
Just to find yourself sitting in a golden cage
In a golden cage

So of course I miss you and miss you bad
But I also felt this way when I was still with you
Yes of course I miss you and miss you bad
But I also felt this way when I was still with you

This city’s no longer mine
There’s sadness written on every corner
Each lover was made to sign
Now I hear them calling me over and over

[Whitest Boy Alive | ich hätte doch gestern aufs Konzert sollen.]

bild und satz.

…why am i always afraid of losing it?


:: Loney, Dear – Summers <3
:: so müde


    Ich mag diese ungeschminkten Samstagabende, an denen man eingemummelt in Jogginganzug und Baumwollschal Tatort guckt, sich Peking-Suppe und Sushi liefern lässt und den Abend dann ganz in Ruhe alleine ausklingen lässt. Solche, an denen das Zimmer dann nach Erdbeer-Sahne-Tee riecht und schöne Musik aus den Lautsprechern tönt. Samstagabende, an denen man sich bis spät nachts noch mit sich selbst beschäftigt und Zeit zum Nachdenken hat. Samstagabende, die man in einer Art Traumwelt verbringt, nichts anderes trinkend als Tee und Wasser. Jene Samstagabende, die man nach anstrengenden Freitagnächten gerne alleine ausklingen lässt. Jene, die einem die schönsten und längsten Sonntage gewähren.

    # Loney, Dear . Summers
    # Ausgeglichenheit in mir.

    Loney, Dear

    I AM JOHN.

    Johnny and I, we got lost tonight, we got carried away, it takes someone like me, to lose track like that, to be troubled down, got a heart full of plans but nowhere to run, there were seventeen dogs out to track us down and i got some bruises and i got a scar but now, never gonna let you down, and i got it wrong like i knew i would and i told you, never gonna let you down, i must never let you down, but i will always let you and everything must start from here, in a morning with ease with somewhere to go, with no sticky feeling of going wrong without the heartbeats asking where you’re gonna go, with the trouble you wear, you want to wear it down, you want to make something new of this but never gonna make it home, never gonna make it, someone i want now, somewhere i want to go, and i told you, never gonna let you down, never gonna let you down, but I will always let you down. i said johnny and i, we got lost tonight, but we doubled our chances we’ve got somewhere to go, we’ve got devils chasing us to hunt us down, and we know we can’t go like this from now, i’ve got a feeling of you, and we danced for so long, i want your arms around me, said never gonna let you down, never gonna let you down, but i will always let you down. I’ve got a feeling of you and we danced for so long, I want your arms around me like lovers do, and I’m never gonna let you down, never gonna let you down.